Today is seven months.  Seven months and still I see you sitting in your chair smiling at me.
I don't know how or why you disappeared. I know your body was tired and broken, but how is it that your mind wasn't ?
Your mind your heart your soul your eyes were still as clear and luminous as ever.
So confusing.

This disappearing leaves me in a waiting pattern.
Waiting to see what comes next, how and when we can meet again.
I have no future.
The future is a broken branch.

I pray to be all right in the here and now.
ok divine one,  please send me some strength.

I pray for the expansive soul that you are,
to keep me in the heart of your heart.

Amen.