sea diary

this morning at dawn
I felt I could not continue
I don't know where is the next step
What am I here to accomplish?
And how will I make that happen?
I sat by the sea
waiting for the divine, for you, to send me a sign.
No sign appeared.
No voices or even light taps on the shoulder.
I walked into the water, too afraid to walk out far enough to not turn back.
Everything scared me, the waves, the undertow, the loneliness of the beach.
And then wet and cold I left the beach
looking for safety.
I pray the biggest prayer I can pray.
HELP

I need liftoff....