"A fresh attitude starts to happen when we look to see that yesterday was yesterday, and now it is gone; today is today and now it is new. It is like that - every hour, every minute, it is changing.  If we stop observing change, then we stop seeing everything as new."   Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche

I pray to go through my frustration and anger that things change, that life is impermanent.
I can't stand that fact. and I fight it every step of the way.
I pray to allow anger and frustration to emerge, to not stand it its way, to give it its life and allow it when it's ready to change and transform,
it might not happen this minute, this day, or even this year, I pray to bow before every unliberated, ungood feeling I have with reverence for all life even the messy parts.

I pray for your liberated soul, changing and beautiful to stay in my orbit, to watch over me, and guide me through this life and beyond.

Amen, amen amen....

This morning I pray to be released from the responsiblility I feel that I did something wrong, so wrong.
I go over the day it happened. and it's all a bad dream.
I pray to forgive.
I pray to learn how to live now
in a world I don't like anymore.
I pray to be grateful for the world
despite your absence.
I pray to believe in the next world.
I pray for your soul.

Amen.

"Last Night as I was Sleeping"  Antonio Machado

Last night as I was sleeping I dreamt !
marvelous error !
that I had a beehive here inside my heart
And the golden bees were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures."


There's no leaning on you anymore to get me out of this,
just as you have a pattern of life
there is a pattern to life for me too.
letting go means moving, not on, not forward, just moving in the pattern of life.
And "being generous enough to allow change in my life."
I pray to be brave enough to allow change in my life.
I pray for your soul. always.
and every day.

Amen

"Don't surrender your loneliness
 so quickly
 let it cut more deep."  Hafiz


     I pray for your soul
     to not be lonely
     to know our love for you
     in the soul world
     I pray to know loneliness
     and not run from it.
     
Amen

"I no longer desire what I used to desire.  I must wait - supposing that such a thing could happen, for a new desire to form."  Roland Barthes

I don't know what my desires are, they all relate to the past, and I can not change it.
I have to find a "new path to the waterfall."
I pray to be guided to find that way and to walk it.
I pray for your soul to be at peace, forgetting all earthly cares.
Amen.

I am loving you every minute, as I loved you here on earth, love doesn't change.

I am never far from you,
my heart is always with you.
your immortal heart is here with me.
I will find you,
we will find each other
in the heavens and the galaxies, or the planets beyond this one,
my soul will travel to yours.

"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy."   John 16:20

Into this river of life, endless tears flow
Life is everlasting,
 I pray.
I will someday swim into the great ocean
to join you there.
I pray to do what needs to be done, until that moment comes.